Expanding Void - by Erik Smith
I'm reaching out again
Can anybody hear me
Why do all in earshot run
Why does everybody fear me
Some people lash at me in stupidity
How come they try to tear me
Others keep me isolated
Absorbing all my energy
Why can't you just release me
I want you now to share me
Instead you flaunt and wear me
You might as well destroy me
I'll bet that is what you want
You say to all that you have left me
Yet still your memory remains to haunt
You've left my life unsure, distraught
Something stirs within myself
It thrashes against my frozen shell
It enters my brain
It wants them all dead
It cuts and bruises my head
It partially convinces me to send them to hell
It slips away in your memory
Where you've gone, I cannot tell
Sometimes I think I'm doing better
Then you saunter back towards myself
Sometimes I feel I've destroyed your mental remains
Your seeds then produce within myself
You run me over
Disappear around the bend
Swing around behind me
Plow through my mind again
The only way out to erase myself?
Sweet voice within my mind
Lovely words tickling my soul
Perfect gifts warming my heart
You've always made me whole
The memory scratches away
Reality shatters the escape complete
Freezing on fire it's time for defeat
Killing my parents
Killing my friends
Should I kill myself?
There's nothing left
Incapacitating those who believed in me
Deleting those who gave me hope
Shave my head and slit their throats
Fuck those ideas unable to cope
Sponge all the drugs
Gather those who oppose me
Bundle them in one small place
Every last person outside is dead
Look them all into the grace
Blow my brains across their face
Impurity is everything
Insanity runs everything
I cannot feel anything
Another day won't come again
What have I done
