Somewhat Distracted - by Erik Smith
Notes:
Male----Female
ripoff, ripoff, ripoff
Fell in love with all you do
Tried so hard to be with you
Fell too hard and lost my means
Started hating everything
Mend and stitch my open wounds
Sample my new hate filled tunes
Shedding thoughts accept defeat
Left behind as you retreat
Made the choice to disappear
Shoot up full of hate and fear
Tear the hole a bead of blood
Inject pain eject the flood
Guts splatter across the floor
Too far gone to care anymore
Destroyed hated despised whore
Too far gone to care anymore
I'll build a castle
Where we can safely hide
I'll fill the moat with fire
Here alone now side by side
I don't want to see you fall apart
You still have what's in your heart
You've done so much for me
I can't watch you lose yourself
I won't let you burst apart
Let them try to get to us
I'll kill them all just let them see
Can't you see this hate that burns within
I can't show you this desperate place I'm in
I'm trying to return to where I remember being from
But every time I get a glimpse the worse it becomes
I try to completely bury the beast
But it gets stronger and comes back again
There used to be a time so long ago
When I used to mean just about everything
Hold me a little tighter
I might just fall away
My heart riddled with decay
This widening hole in my soul
I am the oppochrist
I've paid the final price
I no longer want to listen
I'm being beat into submission
This destruction wipes off the fear
This repetition makes me disappear
Please my love
I can see through your battle
You're not another flailing cattle
I still see you underneath it all
I wish you didn't feel that small
I don't want to watch your heavens fall
I will help you rise up from your crawl
All you have undergone
I know you will keep on
I'll help you clean away your ugliness
Without you everything is meaningless
I'm in the back on the side so far away
This is the place where I hide and try to stay
I tried to say to you
I tried to ask you this
I really needed to
I'm all alone inside myself
Swimming through the river of piss
I want to repent against it
But I need you to turn my white to red
I need you to help me fight this inside my head
I'm sick of trying to hide
I really want to try
You are the only one who hasn't succumb
You are the person I've always known
The strangest person who won't become
You've opened yourself to me and let it be shown
You are the farthest possible feeling away from being numb
Help show me just exactly how you've grown
Please never forget that I'm disaster prone
